Before We Parted, We Were Forever
It’s been days since I lost the love of my life. It was three years full of affection, understanding and one of the most fascinating learnings I could hold in my heart. And I would love to share it with you today, because before we parted, we were forever.
People experience love in many different ways. Ours was the one that goes very fast, that leads us not to stop to reflect, think and feel. It is true that our love was unique, the kind that we only live in movies and soap operas. Each day I was more aware that our love was too good to be true. And that’s what we both believed.
As the days passed, we both believed in a feeling full of beauty and purity. We were blinded by the thrill of having found something so valuable and unique. This feeling led us to never question whether we were doing things well with each other, if we really were for each other, or compatible. In this way we could never appreciate what we had, and so surrendering hurt more.
We were able to fly and be forever. Every time we met, we felt the hugs, kisses and minutes of our love like the first time. It flooded our hearts and filled us with inner fullness. We were invincible and nothing could break this magic.
With just one look I felt that we would be together for life. When I met him, in just a few hours, we started a journey without separating any further. Sometimes I think that might have been our mistake: neglecting so much of what we had, not stopping at every moment and not knowing each other more deeply.
It’s true that when you find yourself in such a perfect moment, nothing matters to you. I was sure we held each other together in a unique and magical bond. A union so incredible it made me want to follow him everywhere, and so did him. With this feeling we would build our life without caring for anything else. And we started our story at full speed.
So much so that we bump into each other in our own reality. We still didn’t know each other well enough and time alone started to hurt us. So, we didn’t know how to empathize and understand the other, learn along the way. The mistake made us not know how to do it.
In the end, we weren’t forever
And then it happened. That’s when we realized that we weren’t as much for each other as we felt and thought. I just realized that it wasn’t my person who had to accompany him for the rest of his life, nor he perhaps mine.
The pain of feeling that I didn’t know how to please him, that we weren’t compatible, or that we were so different only made us misunderstand. To immerse ourselves in negative emotions that no longer held a positive side. All of this led us to not wanting to be so close together, neither physically nor inwardly. We thought that our bodies were just what brought us together. Our hearts no longer felt that need, the need to shine together, full of peace.
The sadness we felt for many days has become immense, creating a barrier full of depth. And separated us. We no longer dreamed of a life together, and our desires began to take different paths. I felt so empty. Speed was our executioner, accelerating our time and love. A relationship that expired and led me to surrender, not to keep trying. Not to believe that he would leave too, that our fairy tale and precious story would end.
They say that cultivating love is the easiest thing to do in our lives, but I didn’t know how to do it. I surrendered and was a coward. I let him fly, and he let me. But we kept looking at the sky because I knew how to realize that our love had no end.
I’m sure in another place, in another life or maybe in another body. let’s meet again and we can truly love each other. Learn together, understand each other, empathize, enjoy and share a friendship. And something else. Forever or not.
I wish you the best. You will always be in my heart.
